LYNNONEHH

2010-07-03T16:24:00.002+08:00

I'm starting to wonder if I am being too narrow-minded to you.
But if it breaks, it breaks. If it stays, the whole it stays. I just have to keep trusting.
(:

worrying post

2010-05-04T11:31:00.002+08:00

I'm worried.
Worried about my school attendance.
Haven't been attending school, this is my 3rd week now.
I don't wanna drop out and I don't wanna be dismissed.

Lynnlynn, buck up k! Just 1 year!

I know I've been breaking my promises.
I promised to come to school but didn't when I woke up late.
NO, I CANNOT BE LIKE THIS.

ATTEND SCHOOL TML K!
WAKE UP EARLY!

2010-03-23T02:03:00.003+08:00

Dear you,
I was reading my previous entries
and I feel my happiness back then.
So, I deleted all of it.

Last week was a tiring week.
I paid for a run away bill and I've received criticisms.
It's not a bad thing, because at least I know such people exist.

I am saving up for a new member in the family now. (:
And I'm sure she'll love me more than any man does in this world.
Dear you, I'll be a happy girl again.
Definitely.

2010-03-11T17:22:00.002+08:00

All our lives, we search for someone who make us complete.

We choose and we change partners.

We dance to the song of hearbreak, and hope all the while,

wondering somewhere, somehow there is someone searching for us.

Dear you,
I think sometimes it's good not to think about it.
Praise me please? For being so sensible now.

Disappointment comes one after another,
how to smile happily when people (him) you thought so
good about turns out to be someone so shallow and visual?
Dear you, I have lost all faith. ):

I'm used to working now, lesser sleep is fine.
Beats going home and can't even fall asleep.

I'm going to achieve something this year.
I really really will. And I will try really really hard.
Dear you, I'm sure you'll be proud of me. (:

2010-03-07T18:50:00.002+08:00

Dear you,

I feel like I'm treated like a spare tire. All the time.
Maybe Lay Ping was right.. Set some golden rules for myself.

I'm so sick of fighting for the people I care.
I'm so tired of vying for your attention.
If you want me in your life, you find a way to put me there.

2010-02-14T03:25:00.000+08:00

Dear you,

I hope everything goes smoothly.

I'm very tired.

2009-12-24T13:47:00.000+08:00

Christmas Eve..

Perhaps one of the loneliest ever.

2009-12-14T22:54:00.001+08:00

(:
Holidaysssss! <3

2009-12-02T12:19:00.000+08:00

Thanks for everything.

The sweet memories, and the nightmare.

Your sudden visit startled my family.

Your change in attitude towards her, so meek and humble.

I really have nothing to say.

You did it because you're lonely and broke.

I really hope after this evening's meet-up, we will never meet again.

As much as I miss the past.

Those lovely outings, your family and friends..

Time have passed us by and we mature with time, right?

I'll miss the you back then. I really really will.

Goodbye. GTRY & Joy

2009-12-01T14:38:00.001+08:00

So sad but true.
Took me truckloads of courage to move everything into one folder,
and then decided not to open it for good.

I am not all right today. Not at all.

2009-11-04T01:29:00.000+08:00

Wasted the whole day at home today.
UT is coming soon, after school?

I was at home today, and I wondered what I could be doing if I'm still with you.
Playing with the dog, out on errands with you and watching tv.
At least I won't feel that my day is wasted. (:
I miss girl-girl.

But I'm not happy, I feel this heavy feeling inside me when I thought of you.
Feels like a burden.
I immediately made myself better by feeling comfortable,
sitting on my mom's bed with my lappy and watching tv.

Maybe I just miss the routine life I had.
And I miss the dog.
___

Oh yes.
Never ever look for love online. Never ever.
I've added this guy from my FB.
SIM student, so I thought he could be educated enough not to be a pervert/ stalker/whatever.
He was so persistent to webcam with me,
when I asked him if he had a webcam, he didn't have.
Meaning? Only want to see my face.
If I look okay to him, he'll continue talking to me.
If I don't, don't even bother being friends.

Furthermore, my default settings didn't show ppl I have a webcam.
I told him off because I already told him I'm fucking busy for tml's UT
and he insisted on webcaming, and I got irritated.
He said good-bye but I blocked him first.

SIM should really kick such people out.

2009-11-01T15:48:00.000+08:00

I regretted what I did.
Bold, but brainless.
Why why why did I even regret when I've already pondered over it?
Oh, Bernard.

I need to change.
Change the way I speak and the way I do things.

So many things happened.
There's no more you and me, and I miss the dog so much.
But I'm happier now, sometimes a little lonely.

Everything takes time.

2009-07-09T04:33:00.000+08:00

Looking back on how it was
In years gone by
And the good times that I had
Makes today seem rather sad
So much has changed..
____

Depression mode.

Shall update later. (: